27 February 2009..

Today, got 2 person come to our school to show us how to do yoga. We just keep on laughing. After that, Bendahara have ujian tara. We went to do lontar peluru. Many ppl pass but some ppl just throw only. Also never try to het marks. They scare dirty because the peluru always land on the water. Then is Form 3 turn, Yan Ling pass, Xi Lin pass than is me. I so scare but I must pass because Bendahara now is number 3. Must get more marks. Then, I throw the peluru, I look at teacher to see which flag she give. I saw green, green means I pass. I so happy. Then, went back to class.

Rehat time, take my food and went to canteen. Go to koop and see got what to eat. Bought nasi lemak bacause every day nasi lemak sure got many ppl buy wan. While eating, I put my tupperware in front of me and eat the nasi lemak. Suddenly, I saw got leg cross my tupperware. I faster look up and saw 'her'. I so geram. Never study moral wan, food is use to eat not use to cross. Then, YanLing help me take tupperware and put beside me. I say is it 'her'. YanLing say yes. I very geram. Thn, YanLing say just scold her la, cross ppl's food. I say just now I not sure is her. If she do again, I'll scold her. After that, when she walk back. She use the way behind Heizen. I thought for a while "Is it my tupperware there so you sengaja cross now the tupperware beside me you don't want to cross." Back to the class, I tell MinYi to take care of her friend. Hate me also don't cross the tupperware. That time, I very angry adi. Then, she say she dunno because she didin't see anything. I say I don't care la you know or not. Just take care of her.

After that, KH time. I let teacher see my lakaran. Teacher changed my lakaran a bit and give me a piece of MDF bod. So, I went back and sit. Suddenly the bell rang, I and YanLing thought is the changing time, so don't care about it. Suddenly, we saw everybody running out. Then, teacher say kebakaran. YanLing and me quickly go out and wear our shoes. We running in slow motion to the field. On the way, we keep on saying kebakaran in many language. Reach the field, teacher check whether we are there or not. Suddenly Megan not there. Then, I say she caught fire adi. Faster help her. Just play play la. Then, we went to line up in front of MinYi. She like a aunty. Take a handkerchief and put on the head. Sue Mayne keep on play with the field because when you step harder on the field water will come out. Suddenly, my leg got water. I see, is mud. MinYi do wan. Both of my leg also got. I keep on pukul her. She keep on say sorry. Then, SueMayne give me tissue to wipe it off. Then, is time to go back class..

-StephyStango-

Down Down Down Down!!!!

Today my mood very down at the last period. Wei-Yen come and tell me that J never friend MinYi adi. I ask how she know. She say she ask 'her' why 'she' not close with MinYi adi. She say is my fault. I always stick with MinYi, that's why 'she' and MinYi not good adi. I feel like scolding her. What do I do? MinYi and I just sit together when perhimpunan and sometime stayback for koop meeting only got together. Other time also I try my best to be not so close with her so that she and 'her' won't fight again and cry. But now I realize, I do this also no use. She'll still think I snatch MinYi away. No matter what happen, 'she'll' still blame on me. After that, Wei-yen ask me not to say anything. So, I tahan and go back to sit. I try not to do anything but later I say MinYi like wan to cry adi. I thought wanna go there and talk funny things to act like I don't know anything but too bad. MinYi did not 'choi' me. She very the cool. To my suprise, she took out her handkerchief and put at her eyes. I quickly go away. When I sit at my place. I really want to cry adi, why always also my fault. What I do? I cannot have friends. Is it a wrong things to do to have friend. Thn, suddenly my heart have a feeling. A feeling of hatred. I scold myself " Why so stupid? Why should I go to talk to MinYi? Why I have this kind of friend?" Then I scold 'her' this is to 'her', "Why you like to make ppl's life miserable? Now, you and minyi very good adi ryt? why some more you wan 'tak de pasal cari pasal'? I also try when u around stay away from minyi ryt? why some more wan to blame on me? what I do?I HATE YOU FOR WHATEVER REASON!!!!!! U blame everything on me!! What did I do? Can you just plz shut up? You think I love to see your face ar...I also don't like. I also hate but I give face MinYI. I don't say anything about you. But why, you still force me to do that. My feeling adi ok than you come again. You make me wan to scold bad words. But you're lucky, I won't do that. So from now on, I'll just keep my mouth shut and I tahan you., but if I can't tahan means bye-bye. I gonna blurt out everything and ask MinYi to be my listener. So MinYI be ready."

Just now, after come home, I know 'she' sure got write at 'her' blog wan, so I go to read it. 'She' say 'she' wan to slap me in my face ryt...say everything my fault ryt..ok i tahan but 'SHE' SAY MINYI AND 'HER' FRIENDSHIP IS I END WAN!!!!. I can't tahan!!! PLZ JUST SHUT UP??? I where got end 'her' and minyi friendship. I where got. Just that. I got a bit friend with MinYi than 'she' say I end their friendship. What kind of theory is that? WHY???WHY??? WHY 'YOU' WANT TO MAKE MY LIFE MISERABLE? I ADI TAHAN YOU ADI, NOW YOU WAN TO LIGHT MY FIRE UP BACK!!! I HATE YOU!!!

I think now, MinYi sure hate me adi. Because 'she' say is my fault the 'she' and MinYi not good. Just now, MinYi also never choi me adi. SueMayne also look at me at some kind of look. She wan to make the whole class not friend me is it. MinYi not friend me, SueMayne not friend me others also not friend me is it. She wan like is it. She wan me to be alone is it. Now, I wan to say to anyone also cannot. My mum, she don wan to hear. My dad and my bro don know anything. Wei-yen, after 'she' say I snatch wei-yen pula. MinYi, never 'choi' me. Now, who can I tell my feeling to anyone . Cry also must lock in the room only cry. Cannot let my family know. No one talk with me my feeling. I sad also alone, cry also alone. 'YOU' MADE IT. MINYI NEVER FRIEND ME ADI. 'YOU' MADE IT. HAPPY NOW. OR 'YOU' STILL WAN TO SEE ME CRY.

-StephyStango-