Down Down Down Down!!!!

Today my mood very down at the last period. Wei-Yen come and tell me that J never friend MinYi adi. I ask how she know. She say she ask 'her' why 'she' not close with MinYi adi. She say is my fault. I always stick with MinYi, that's why 'she' and MinYi not good adi. I feel like scolding her. What do I do? MinYi and I just sit together when perhimpunan and sometime stayback for koop meeting only got together. Other time also I try my best to be not so close with her so that she and 'her' won't fight again and cry. But now I realize, I do this also no use. She'll still think I snatch MinYi away. No matter what happen, 'she'll' still blame on me. After that, Wei-yen ask me not to say anything. So, I tahan and go back to sit. I try not to do anything but later I say MinYi like wan to cry adi. I thought wanna go there and talk funny things to act like I don't know anything but too bad. MinYi did not 'choi' me. She very the cool. To my suprise, she took out her handkerchief and put at her eyes. I quickly go away. When I sit at my place. I really want to cry adi, why always also my fault. What I do? I cannot have friends. Is it a wrong things to do to have friend. Thn, suddenly my heart have a feeling. A feeling of hatred. I scold myself " Why so stupid? Why should I go to talk to MinYi? Why I have this kind of friend?" Then I scold 'her' this is to 'her', "Why you like to make ppl's life miserable? Now, you and minyi very good adi ryt? why some more you wan 'tak de pasal cari pasal'? I also try when u around stay away from minyi ryt? why some more wan to blame on me? what I do?I HATE YOU FOR WHATEVER REASON!!!!!! U blame everything on me!! What did I do? Can you just plz shut up? You think I love to see your face ar...I also don't like. I also hate but I give face MinYI. I don't say anything about you. But why, you still force me to do that. My feeling adi ok than you come again. You make me wan to scold bad words. But you're lucky, I won't do that. So from now on, I'll just keep my mouth shut and I tahan you., but if I can't tahan means bye-bye. I gonna blurt out everything and ask MinYi to be my listener. So MinYI be ready."

Just now, after come home, I know 'she' sure got write at 'her' blog wan, so I go to read it. 'She' say 'she' wan to slap me in my face ryt...say everything my fault ryt..ok i tahan but 'SHE' SAY MINYI AND 'HER' FRIENDSHIP IS I END WAN!!!!. I can't tahan!!! PLZ JUST SHUT UP??? I where got end 'her' and minyi friendship. I where got. Just that. I got a bit friend with MinYi than 'she' say I end their friendship. What kind of theory is that? WHY???WHY??? WHY 'YOU' WANT TO MAKE MY LIFE MISERABLE? I ADI TAHAN YOU ADI, NOW YOU WAN TO LIGHT MY FIRE UP BACK!!! I HATE YOU!!!

I think now, MinYi sure hate me adi. Because 'she' say is my fault the 'she' and MinYi not good. Just now, MinYi also never choi me adi. SueMayne also look at me at some kind of look. She wan to make the whole class not friend me is it. MinYi not friend me, SueMayne not friend me others also not friend me is it. She wan like is it. She wan me to be alone is it. Now, I wan to say to anyone also cannot. My mum, she don wan to hear. My dad and my bro don know anything. Wei-yen, after 'she' say I snatch wei-yen pula. MinYi, never 'choi' me. Now, who can I tell my feeling to anyone . Cry also must lock in the room only cry. Cannot let my family know. No one talk with me my feeling. I sad also alone, cry also alone. 'YOU' MADE IT. MINYI NEVER FRIEND ME ADI. 'YOU' MADE IT. HAPPY NOW. OR 'YOU' STILL WAN TO SEE ME CRY.

-StephyStango-